sorrow

For the last 3 days I have operated on adrenaline, anxiety, an overwhelmed sympathetic nervous system. Heart racing. Hands trembling. Unable to concentrate, or process thoughts. Exhaustion.

Now today, I feel sadness. I weep for those who are dying alone, without the care and touch of their dearest. I ache for the loved ones who feel powerless and must stay distanced from their loved ones as they lay overcome with this illness.

Today, I take pause. I take time to cry. I take time to breathe. I take time to sit and listen to my breath, to be present.  I acknoledge the energies around me, and consciously block the ones that will overwhelm my system. I give thanks for my health, for another day of living free from the chains that have bound me. I take time to pray for those afflicted with this virus, and for their loved ones. I pray for those who are struggling at their homes, alone, or with kids, or with people they do not care to be isolated with. I pray for those of us who are healthy, may we remain so. I just pray.

Find something that brings you joy, that makes you laugh. Call a friend, a loved one. Take this time to remember who you really are, especially if you have never remembered.

I send love to you all at this time.